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~ How do we escape, yet live our lives? ~ Chapter 6 ~ Torn ~ Part 2


How do we escape, yet live our lives?



Author: Spudacus
Chaptered Fic ~ Chapter 7 Of 20 ~

Rating: NC17/18(sexual content & language)
Pairings: JaeHo/YoonJae, YooSu, ChangTa/KeiMin, MIN7EN, Min/Siwon, Min/Heechul and Siwon/Heechul also Others Possibly.
Everything, Love, life, romance, lust, sex, violence, light drug addiction, like a drama I suppose.
omg I don’t know what to say really! :D , this is basically about the boys and their lives etc and their problems and all that, a bit like a drama/soap! :D

Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys, nor do they know I am writing this and I wish I did own them Hahaha lol *dirty/naughty mind takes over lol*


I hope you all like this, I’m quite excited about it! :D please tell me what you think! :D thank you! :D ENJOY!

 ~ Prologue ~

~ Chapter 1 ~

~ Chapter 2 ~

~ Chapter 3 ~ THE LOSS OF ME ~

~ Chapter 4 ~ Meetings ~

~ Chapter 5 ~ Tea Stains ~

~ Chapter 6 ~ Love In The Ice ~

~ Chapter 7 ~ Torn ~ Part 1 ~


Part 2 ~ Torn ~



Yoochun had gone to a different doctors surgery and spoke with the psychologist there, he even told a few little white lies and exaggerated a few things, he needed some way to escape and run away from the pain, the little man decided that Yoochun needed to be given some balance again in his life, and prescribed a smallish dose of valium to Yoochun, he would not have done so had he known about the boy’s anti-depressants. A few weeks went by as Yoochun was taking the valium every now and then. Junsu was away with his music so he didn’t know about the valium.  


Yoochun was lying down as he had mistakenly taken a little too much valium this time Junsu entered demanding to know what the substance was that he saw his boyfriend injecting himself with, he was a little drunk. Yoochun didn’t answer him but instead got up and floated off to the bathroom and decided that as the valium wasn’t working (as far as he could feel). “Well tell em! Hey I’m talking to you Yoochun! Answer me! NOW!”……. “It’s valium! I need it because I can still feel the pain and the hurt but also the love, I just want it to all go away, Junsu!” Yoochun screamed at the boy who was tapping angrily on the door-frame.


He was looking in the bowl of the sink thinking what to do and what to say, but nothing came eh felt light headed but he reached up for his new bottle of tablets and he downed as many as he could I none gulp, he drank some water then he stumbled out of the room and as he was Junsu grabbed him by his neck slamming him against the wall. “How dare you scream at me? Do you know how much I have given up for you! Do you!? Huh!? My life is just sin, I am now sin I want to wash it away with the rising sun but I can’t and all I do is love you but al I do is hurt you more but I can’t let go of you!”


Yoochun was starting to drift off his eyes were rolling and he slipped and fell onto the floor sending the little table with the ornate Chinese style vase and bright blood red roses in, crashing to the floor, Junsu just followed his lover with his eyes in disbelief and was stunned into silence by the scene. A blood curdling scream ripped from Junsu’s soju lined throat at the realisation had dawned and sobered him on the spot that his boyfriend had taken a severe overdose.”Yoochun-AHHHHHH!”……………


He went to the floor in a quivering wreck, “oh god, oh my god! Yoochun-ah! Yoochun-ah! I…I'm so, so sorry, I didn’t mean it I would never want you to leave me never ever! Oh god please help me please let him be okay! Please god I will do anything to save him! Please god please!” Junsu sobbed and broke down he was at a loss as to what he should do for his lover.


Suddenly a knock came at their door and Junsu looked up and realised that it was the neighbour calling in because they had heard the scream. His Yoochun would be saved!


In the hospital’s A & E dept Junsu sat quietly sobbing into a glass of ice cold water and some headache tablets, he swallowed down the bitter mix and sat back with his eyes closed, dreaming of a better time. The doors opened beside him and out stepped into the starkness of the waiting room, a female doctor, she was a drugs consultant and motioned for Junsu to follow her through the light blue plastic double doors, to his resting lover.


“Kim Junsu-shi, I must explain to you before you see him, that his condition is still very serious, he could have been lost to us if we had been much later in getting him. He has taken a severe amount of drugs and we had to pump his stomach and we have put him onto a drip to give him back some nutrients, he is extremely weak but you may stay with him as long as you like.” She was a softly sweet spoken young woman and she was around Junsu’s height, her badge stated her name as: “Jin Bora”, she had long black hair tied back and a sweet young and slightly plump face, she stopped by some doors and pointed with her sea green jumpered arm, she was wearing a nice skirt and cool boots Junsu mentally noted, he nodded his thanks and when in dreading what was lying in wait.     


Juns entered a cool yet warm room; it held his boyfriend and his love. Yoochun looked so bare and pale, like a ghost had replaced him. The image of his lover lying in the hospital bed in such a horrid way threatened to destroy Junsu. He sat down next to Yoochun on a chair next to the side table with a little lamp on; it threw demonic and angelic like silhouette shadows about the room. Stiffly Junsu leaned over and gave Yoochun a kiss on the forehead and then the lips, those cold lips, Junsu would never forget the warmth they used to hold, he was hoping and waiting for the warmth to return.


He broke down again holding Yoochun’s hand and sobbing into it. “I'm so, so sorry Yoochun ah! I made this happen to you! I won’t be able to forgive myself! I won’t blame you for anything ever again! it’s not your fault I love you, I won’t drink either I will get help okay, okay hun, my babe my sweet, sweet babe, how I could have hurt you!? It just pains me everytime I think of hurting you, I will give up on god even though it’s tough, I will do it for us….for you and our love, I see that there is nothing wrong with you or I being in love! I'm just sad that it took something like this to see that, I wouldn’t know what to do with myself if I ever lost you. Please stay here with me, where you belong, come on baby!”


Junsu felt a soft squeeze on his hand and looked up at Yoochun through tear clouded eyes. “Yoo...Yoochun-ah, hey there, how are you feeling? I’m here now don’t worry my love, it’s all going to be alright now” Junsu reassured his boyfriend softly. “Jun…Junsu-ah….. I… I am sorry for doing that… I heard what you said and…. And I … will try too if you will… I love you more than life…. Thank you… and you can keep your faith, don’t feel you must choose, he happy please……. That’s…that’s….tha….that’s all I want for…fo….fer…you” Yoochun feel asleep again barely able to keep his eyes open he drifted back off into his slumber. Junsu smiled and thanked him then cried a little more and held on tight to Yoochun’s hand, they both slept soundly and comfortably.


~ End ~ Torn ~


A/N: Hey guys! I am sooooo sorry I took sooo long to update! LoL but this is a long chapter! :D hehe I hope its okay cos I did struggle on both chapters 7 and 8 so umm yes… hehe lo L:D

Anyway thanks for reading and commenting! Oh and there will be 20 chapters in all!  :D  <333333333333


Tags: 18, changta/keimin, jaeho/yoonjae, life, light drug addiction, love, love in the ice, lust, min/heechul, min/siwon, min7en, nc-17, romance, sex, siwon/heechul, violence, yoosu
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