.How do we escape, yet live our lives?
Length: Chaptered Fic ~ Chapter 10 Of 20 ~
Rating: NC17/18 – (sexual content & language)
Pairings: JaeHo/YoonJae, YooSu, ChangTa/KeiMin, MIN7EN, Min/Siwon, Min/Heechul and Siwon/Heechul also Others Possibly.
Genre: Everything, Love, life, romance, lust, sex, violence, light drug addiction, like a drama I suppose.
Summary: omg I don’t know what to say really! :D , this is basically about the boys and their lives etc and their problems and all that, a bit like a drama/soap! :D
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys, nor do they know I am writing this and I wish I did own them Hahaha lol *dirty/naughty mind takes over lol*
I hope you all like this, I’m quite excited about it! :D please tell me what you think! :D thank you! :D ENJOY!
~ Prologue ~
~ Chapter 10 ~ The Truth Will Out ~ 1, 2 ~
~ Chapter 11 ~ Picking Up The Pieces ~
~ Chapter 12 ~ Fallen Angel ~
~ Chapter 13 ~ The Power Of Love ~
~ Chapter 14 ~ Together ~
~ Chapter 15 ~ 인사 (Insa) ~
~ Chapter 16 ~ 안녕 (Annyong)~
~ Chapter 17 ~ Lost ~
~ Chapter 18 ~ Found ~
~ Chapter 19 ~ Cherry Blossoms ~
~ Chapter 20 ~ Hope For The Future ~
~ Chapter 10 ~ The Truth Will Out ~
Jaejoong sat there staring at Yunho’s fine profile as the golden sunshine shone on his handsome face, Jaejoong felt his heart skip a beat and he smiled involuntarily at the site. He so wanted to grab Yunho and kiss him black and blue and make love with him until he was driven insane. He soon caught himself staring and shook his raven black hair clad head to wake up from his daydreaming, yet he still snuck a few sneaky peeks at Yunho.
The days wore on at college, and Yunho kept on trying to pursue Jaejoong, he tried at every opportunity to woo him, with flowers, with songs, with dances and even with his hands and lips. Jaejoong wanted to escape more and more from the clutches of lee Jun-Ki, he continued to get worse and worse, all those drug fuelled parties he went to were making him worse. Jaejoong stopped Yunho out in the corridor, “Yunho-ah, I… err… will you meet me please outside in the garden on the bench opposite the fountain, please, at 3.” “umm sure JaeJoongie!”
… Later …
Yunho sat down next to Jaejoong, who was sitting quietly, just waiting for him to arrive. They sat there in silence for what seemed like an eternity. They both watched the single proverbial cloud float by in the crystal blue sky above them. The wind blew softly; tenderly it nudged some of the sakura blossoms to run along hand in hand with it, sailing off into the sky to an unknown destiny. Everything was serene and apart from the sound of the fountain and the wind every now and then, there was silence.
Jaejoong turned slowly to Yunho then and looked up into those beautiful eyes of his. “Yunnie… I … Ahh… I have to tell you the truth, I … I... Ahh I have liked you since I laid eyes on you, but I couldn’t act on my feelings, because I feel dirty and I don’t want to make you dirty like I am, by being with me, I just couldn’t bear to see you be hurt for whatever reason. I made my heart like stone, so I could get through life easier, but I … I can’t shut off my feelings for you, they are too strong now and you have melted my heart to the floor, I don’t know what to do, I have never felt this way before. I want to give you me and my heart, that’s all I have to give you… I’m sorry.”
Yunho sat there gobsmacked, his mouth was hanging open; he just gaped and blinked and blinked and gaped at Jaejoong.
“I ahh… Jaejoong ah… I never knew! Thank you! hehe, I have felt the same way since I saw you too! hehe, I'm so glad you feel the same way, I knew it! Hehe, you could never be dirty to me and you could never dirty me as long as I am with you!, why do you say these things, you are my angel, my saviour! Hehe you helped me to get through any tough days here even at home I just think of you and all the things we do and it makes me happy, you’re like Prozac I swear! Hehehe” “hahahaha, err thanks Yunho! I don’t want to talk about my past though, if that’s okay with you, please don’t force me too.” “Okay baby, I won’t.”
They leaned in towards each other and they kissed sweetly, yet each kiss held a burning desire of want and lust. Yunho looked at Jaejoong in his eyes, “JaeJoongie, will you come back to my house today, I can introduce you to my parents and I can show you my house and my ah ... bedroom too, heheh” “heeheh that sounds nice Yunnie!”
They reached Yunho’s house, it looked so very grand to Jaejoong’s eyes. They went up the stairs and into Yunho’s pristine house, his parents were sitting up at the kitchen table, their usual placing, according to Yunho they think it makes them look better than they are). “Mum, dad, this is Jaejoong, my ahh… boyfriend!” “Hello there Jaejoong, such a *chough chough* nice name and you are mighty beautiful! My, my” “ahh hello there my boy, yes you are very handsome aren’t you! Well you have made our Yunho very happy and he, you I see from your beaming smile! Hehe” Yunho’s mother tapped him on the arm so he didn’t go any further and embarrasses the young star crossed lovers any more than he had done so already.
“Umm… yes …. (Yunho’s mum made a few faces to get them to go) … ahh well mum, dad we will go upstairs now, I thought u guys were going out?”
“Oh! Yes yes we are! Thank you for reminding us Yunho! Come on dear lets go then!” Yunho’s mother, who was looking unusually pale got up and ushered his father out of the house whilst looking back to wink at the two boys.
“ahh bye boys! Have fun okay you two! See you later!”
The two went upstairs to Yunho’s room; it smelled like fresh strawberries and cream, it made Jaejoong think of Wimbledon when he watched it every year on the BBC world service. They sat down on Yunho’s soft yet firm bed, he didn’t know where to look while Yunho got undressed and slipped into shorts and a tight white vest. Yunho took Jaejoong’s soft white hands in his strong hands and held the smaller man tightly, then he began to kiss and entice him with butterfly kisses and an innumerable amount of little soft light kisses all over Jae's skin; any available piece of skin showing was brushed by Yunho’s soft lips.
They fell into lust’s lake of love and intimacy.
Neither really remembered how the pack of condoms and bottle of lube got on or how their clothes ended up on the floor in a mess, even a stray sock or two was hanging off Yunho’s wardrobe. All they knew is that they were on Yunho’s bed, naked and ready to make love, deep passionate lustful love. Jaejoong bent over the bed and leaned on it whilst standing; doggy was to be the style. Yunho slipped on the condom, lube and then held Jaejoong’s slender body delicately and then he moved closer to Jaejoong.
Yunho had buried himself deeply inside of Jaejoong. Jaejoong never knew what it was like to be lost and found again and again, but with Yunho rocking and pounding into him, he now knew that feeling, they both gave into pleasure with not being bothered at all. Yunho made Jaejoong moan and scream even more than the sex, due to his skilled hands roaming all over Jae's sweat beaded body, coupled with burning hot kisses on Jae's back and neck, Jaejoong could only moan and cry out for the pleasure was nearly unbearable, he never wanted it to end.
But end it did and they collapsed onto Yunho’s bed, deeply breathing and trying to grasp at some needed air. Their breathes had calmed down enough to let them talk, they lay there staring into each others eyes, each filled with love and lust, happiness and comfort. “Yunnie… I … I love you and thank you for this”
“I love you too JaeJoongie, I always have and I always will, thank you for letting me in”
They fell asleep there naked, holding each other on Yunho’s bed in his room.
The green tea was poured demurely from the ceramic blue and white tea pot, into two little white porcelain cups. The hand laid it back down on the table and blew a little on both cups, dispersing the rising hot air for a moment. The breath and the hand belonged to one Pak Yoochun; he was sitting out on his balcony in the blaring sunshine of a fresh summer’s morning, the breeze catching his hair every now and then.
Kim Junsu, his boyfriend, had just got out of the shower and came out and joined Yoochun, sitting across the table from him. He was naked but a crisp white towel was wrapped low about his hips, he was still wet and shiny from the shower, his hair was all over the place and it fell sexily around his soft face.
They both started eating the toast form the metal toast rack and both buttered an assortment of spreads onto their toast.
“So… my mother called last night, she wants to meet this new girlfriend of mine” Junsu started the conversation off first. Yoochun closed and folded the lifestyle magazine he was reading and put it on the floor beside him. “Oh…. Right, of course she does…. You haven’t told her yet…hmmm…what did you say to her?” “Well…ahhhh…..” Junsu looked a little sheepish, “I told her Saturday evening would be okay….but I only said that because she was really pushing me for a time and day! I'm sorry it’s such short notice Chunnie-ah!”
Yoochun gaped at Junsu who now went bright red, “what!? How could you agree to THIS EVENING! Your family don’t even know you are GAY! Fuck me Junsu why didn’t you think!.... are you even up to telling them!? What are you going to do? Take me to the door with you and say this is my girlfriend Chunetta or something!?”
Junsu smiled a little at the name change, but quickly it faded, “I I … I know, I'm sorry Chunnie-ah! Look you can wait in the car and I go in and tell them, then if I come running out the house waving my hands madly, crying and screaming then start the car easily to get going, if not, then assume something better, how about that then? And... And if it’s okay then you can come in and meet my parents… I have more or less moved out of there so I think they should know where I have been living really…. So ummm yea… how’s that for an idea Yoochun ah?”
Yoochun sat back in the light coloured wooden chair, closed his eyes and went deep into his thoughts…….. “Okay then it sounds okay…what time do we have to be there for dinner?”
“Great! Ahh… lets see…. 8:00”
They carried on with their breakfast, then went and Junsu got changed, Yoochun went and played the piano and did some writing of the musical variety; Junsu sat and watched TV with a notepad and a pen, he jotted down some lyrics whenever they hit him, and randomly ran into the work room and played a few notes on the piano, then jotting the notes down, he would run back off into the front room again.
The car screeched to a grinding halt half on half off the first few steps up into the college, the driver stumbled out and up the stairs and found his way to the packed large canteen. The person in question was Lee Jun-Ki, he had been drinking again, he had a bottle of soju in a brown paper bag in his left hand, randomly taking swigs from the open bottle and he had been taking drugs aswell, his sleep deprived and blood shot eyes proved this.
“Jaejoong-ah! Jaejoong-AH! COME OUT HERE! WHERE ARE YOU!? YAH! WHERE ARE YOU HIDING!? THAT PERFECT BOYFRIEND OF YOURS CAN’T PROTECT NOR HIDE YOU FOREVER! YAAHAHHH Jaejoong –AH!!!” Jun-Ki went around screaming as he stumbled into the canteen full of people.
The boys were sitting down at a table by the large, semi open glass windows, which looked out onto a little lake with beautiful plants and it was all very well maintained by the horticulture groups and through their classes also.
“Shit! He’s found me, guys we gotta get him away from here, now!” Jaejoong quickly said to the other boys, there was a scarred look in his young eyes, or fear of something being released maybe? Told to the world?... or a dark secret form the love of his life and his best friends even?... either way Jaejoong didn’t want Jun-Ki around.
“Yah! Jun-Ki-ah! Why yare you here!? Causing a commotion!? Eh!? Come with me lets go outside now!” Jaejoong tried to get Jun-Ki outside of the building and away from the onlookers, “what you looking at? It’s not a spectator sport you know!” Yoochun shouted to the gathering crowd around the scene. Yunho ran to Jaejoong’s side, “Jae are you okay, you want my help?” he put his hand on Jaejoong’s shoulder, Jun-Ki seeing this immediately shouted, “yah! So you are doing it and showing affection in front of me now!? Eh!? In front of the whole college eh Jaejoong!? Why do it to me!? Eh!? I OWN YOU! Remember?....” Jun-Ki said swaying a little.
“Come on Jun-Ki, lets go outside we can talk there, it’s a better place to do it, come on now lets go” Jaejoong tried to coerce him outside, but he insisted on staying put, “no…nonono NO! I’m staying here! I want everyone to know about you Kim Jaejoong! HAH! … so you are with him eh? Heh, the beautiful land handsomely intelligent son of the Jung’s is it? Hehehe…. Hehehe…. Heh… he… pfft” Jun-Ki seemed to slow down and worsen and then another burst of drunken energy form the depths of his alcohol drenched liver.
Jun-Ki was becoming more hysterical by the minute. “I took you in, looked after you and gave you the best room! I helped you when you were NOTHING, when your own family had disowned you! I was the only one ME! ME! ONLY ME! I TOOK CARE OF YOU DIDN’T I!? And this is how you repay me!? I told you! you were not to see anyone! NO ONE! You dirty whore!”
“What the fuck are you on about!? Don’t you dare say those things to my Jaejoong! Or you will wish you weren’t born mister!” Yunho piped up whilst pulling Jaejoong back a little.
“ahhhh yes Mr Jung Yunho… heh… better looking in real life that in your pictures I see, that’s good I suppose…..*hic*…*ahem*… do you know about your precious Jaejoong’s life? Eh!? Has he told you he works for me!? hmm? What he does? What he is?.... no?.... well let me tell you then!”
“NO! Jun-Ki please don’t do this to me! please I am happy, I thank you for helping me, but please just let me be! Please! Do not ruin this for me! I beg of you!” Jaejoong dropped to his knees and bowed deeply and respectfully to Jun-Ki, who just looked down on him as if he were a piece of dirt beneath his fingernails, “heh aww Jaejoong, tut, tut, tut, its not that simple, a sorry and a thank you for everything, won’t help you know”
“So where was I? ……. Oh yes.. Yunho and everyone all of his dear friends…*he pointed at, Changmin, Yoochun and Junsu with a swaying hand*… you see Jaejoong is GAY, his family disowned him and I helped him, I’m his PIMP! Yes P.I.M.P…PIMP! HIM!... THERE *pointing* ONE Kim Jaejoong, IS MY!! RENT BOY! A dirty man whore who gets fucked by dirty nasty men for MONEY! And you Jaejoong are NOTHING AND ARE DIRTY BEYOND COMPARE! YOU HAVE TAINTED YOUR BELOVED Yunho by having sex with him! HAH! STICK THAT IN YOUR PIPE AND SMOKE IT! You nasty whore!!” Jun-Ki looked pleased with himself, you could hear a pin drop, even though the silence was deafening.
Everybody was holding their breathes, no one dared to breathe, Jaejoong was sitting on the floor now a mess sobbing and saying he was sorry to Yunho, he got up and with the tears streaming down his face he tried to hold Yunho’s hands but he was shaken off, all he could say was he was sorry to Yunho, he didn’t want to hut him or to taint him. “
Yunnie-ah pl…please please I’m so soo sorry for not telling you! Please I love you Yunho-AH!”
Jaejoong called after Yunho as his frozen features turned even harder and somehow colder he launched himself at Jun-Ki and started to beat him to a pulp, “I warned you! You mother fucking cunting rank dirty crack pile of horse SHIT! Don’t you ever come near Jaejoong or this place, me, my family or even my friends! Do... *punch* you... *slap* under... *punch* …*punch* stand!? *punch* you piece of cunting crap! *scratch down chest* Bollocks to you! Arrrggh!” Yunho now had his hands around Jun-Ki’s slender neck strangling the life out of the lithe man on the floor, wriggling beneath a seething Yunho.
“NO! Yunho-ah! Stop you are going to kill him! Nooo!!!”…”GOOD!” the four boys jumped on Yunho to drag him off kicking and screaming at Jun-Ki that he’s a dead man if he sees him again.
Someone had called the police and an ambulance was on the way as well, they arrived soon and carted Jun-Ki off to be looked after, somehow nobody there said anything about Yunho being the first to attack, everyone said it was provoked that he was going for them and Yunho leapt to his friend’s defence. It seemed to go down okay with the feds and that was the last they saw of Lee Jun-Ki.
After the commotion had calmed down, Yunho looked the opposite way to Jaejoong and said “I... I need time Jae” and with that he went off somewhere…. “Yunnie-ah wait please come back we need to talk! I … I ...” the other boys held him back, “leave it hyung, he knows where we all are okay and he has his phone etc.” Changmin stated helpfully.
“Mmm… true min, thanks, let’s go”
The friends turned and went the other direction and they each went to their respective homes.
~ end part 1 ~ The Truth Will Out ~